Looking back, Looking forward
So many memories
Fill my heart, mind, and soul
With few regrets along the way
House, holidays, hollering, happenstance
Our meager home will always be your home
Trying to change the retail/UPS pattern of holiday dread
(A few traditions prevailed-Following the string to your stocking, hunting for your Easter basket, “Happy Birthday” banner)
Thank goodness grandma likes to cook and throw a party
Thinking back to all the times I could have been more patient
Wishing we had saved more money
It generally revolved wanting more for you
Gymnastics training and traveling to meets
Stellar, RSG, GCG… Mommy & Me, Compulsory, Optional
Soccer from the time you were four
Mighty Dolphins, Thunderbolts, Storm, Knights, Blues, Placer United, ODP, CDA
Some really good memories and friends
School volunteer and homework “hounder”
Bell Hill, GVCS, Nevada Union
(You didn’t need much of that really)
Friends who are treasures to me, too
You are a pretty good judge of character
Who can appreciate faulted people
That’s your compassionate, idealistic, loyal self
Chauffeuring many hours, many places
Once, bringing you right back home
Did I do enough?
Material possessions advertised on TV
Or what your friends had
In moderation- mostly, we had to
It’s an acceptable thing that life didn’t allow for more
You would definitely have been overindulged
Need vs. want
What is “having it all”?
iPods from most every generation
Clothes that you felt good in
The neatest and newest soccer gear that rocked the grocery budget
Travel to some states you now know you don’t need to go back to
More air miles than the rest of us
In ‘n Out- sometimes twice a week.
Number 1, Animal-style, no tomato.
Extra spread, please
Did I give you enough?
Listening, or trying to, before interjecting
Talking on the way to school or training
These are precious times to me
Sorry for the times you were a captive audience and it was not “pleasant”- aka “Time for a Tirade”
And, not, since we talked through problems together
Laughing at randomly and genuinely funny things
Questioning to gain understanding before I got p.o’ed
Supporting and pushing- a fine line
Reading to you when you were young, papers as you got older
Editing your fabulous writing
Guiding and guarding your precious spirit
Always wanting the best for you in a million ways
Non-wavering high expectations
Always here to support you
Was I there for you enough?
So proud of who you are
Perseverant from the start
(That almost got you kicked out of childcare)
Compassionate
Humble intelligence
Full of wonderful ideas
Your sense of humor is easy and deep
A natural ease that can be misconstrued as complacence
Did I compliment you enough?
Sending you out into the world
Missing you in the mundane, day-in, day-out stuff of life
Feeling the bitter sweetness of this moment
A soft place to land when the fall is hard
Did I love you enough?
Now
Looking forward
As more of a by-stander, spectator
Than is natural for me
Your life blossoms
Sweet and new and full
Breathe it all in
Let it fill you
Expand who you are to become
Live your best life
With few regrets
And lots of love
Pass it on!
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